Gettin Personal ONLINE (First blog post)

I made a resolution to be less personal on social media. All the musicians and entertainers I follow on social media keep things short and simple, like: “so happy to be here in [insert city]", or "what a great time I had at [insert venue]!”. When they DO get personal, it's very non-specific (“golly, boys suck” or “gotta keep up that hustle!") That's part of the job, I get it. Our job is to entertain, to give people an outlet for their emotions, and not to spout every unfiltered thought that rushes through our brains. But writing is very cathartic for me, and I love it, so here I am writing personal stuff on the internet. I’ll take the good with the bad.

So anyway. I realized recently that it’s almost been 2 years since I’ve had a “real job”. The other day I dropped off an application at a cool new restaurant near my apartment, and the first thing the interviewer said was "this is by far the weirdest resume I've ever received"... which didn't bode well. My references included two solar array design firms, a cafe-bakery, a dog walking company, a wine shop, and recording studio. Apparently that’s unusual.

Surprisingly, though, the interview was really fun. We ended talked for almost two hours about the Denver music scene and how the city has changed over the past few years. Since 2008 the Denver metropolitan area has increased in population by 25%. A popular bumper sticker reads “No one cares that you’re from California”… so I try my best to conceal my origins. There’s a booming tech industry and a handful of shiny new skyscrapers downtown. Last week for Derby Day the yuppies were out dressed to the nines in pink coat jackets and feathery hats. Not hating on yuppies, promise, but I kinda see why Denver natives might be a bit resentful of the recent boom.

The Denver music scene is ever-evolving, but is friendly towards new artists. Everyone here loves dubstep and bass music (more than either SLO or NYC), but there is also an appreciation for exciting new things. I’ve joined a local label called “Quite Right”, and I’m a regular performer at a local artsy venue called “Your Mom’s House” (weird name, cool crowd). 

What else? I spend on average about 10 hours a day working on music, and take one day off per week. I’ve hit an amazing stride. Recently some sudden, tragic things have happened to people close to me, and that’s been hard to deal with. I feel far away from home and far away from so many people I love (both geographically, and by my current career-focused mindset). There's a shadow looming over everything, and I can’t seem to find the time to dispel it. If this is what adult life is like, I don’t like it. I won’t go into that too much, though.

Thankfully I’ve found a lot of life-purpose in my work. The music I’m making and the scene I’m apart of is drawing people together in ways I’ve never experienced before. It’s amazing to watch. I booked my first festival gig in California (thanks to my sister Lily), I've made a ton of new music friends, and am making my favorite album I’ve ever heard.

Becoming a career artist-performer definitely has it’s unique challenges. You are, in a sense, a PRODUCT, and that idea comes with an entire subset of issues that my overly-analytic brain loves to run circles around. Maybe I’ll go into that deeper another time. Whatever. I’m thankful I get to spend my time translating the beautiful things of life into music, and nothing is better than that for me. 

Anyways, thanks for reading. Hopefully I didn’t turn you off too much. Let me know If I should just go back to writing generic “happy to be in [city]” posts. I probably should.

Much love,

Alex (nok nok)